An update on my cancer journey after a very hard week 😞
I cannot even stand the thought that the last time I did a blog post my momma was alive and well. There were no signs of cancer in her. We were living our best summer life and I had just been declared stable for another 3 months. My mom was ecstatic. She was and always has been my biggest cheerleader. Now here we are a few short months later and she has gone to heaven. It still is not real and I am so very heartbroken. I miss her so much that it aches. I long to pick up the phone and call her just to chat. She was my best friend. I love you for eternity mom. Thanks for being my angel…just in a different place now. Things felt even more heavy this last week because my next scan was “calling” it was time to check on my NET’s (neuroendocrine tumors) and see where things were at. So I did the scan Tuesday and met with my doctor Wednesday to go over results. Talk about scanxiety. I don’t know if it’s ever going to get easier. But it’s for the rest of my life so I’ve got to figure out how