Team Jenny!

Just sitting here finishing up the the last of the bag of chemo for this round. While we watch a nice spring blizzard out the window.  It’s nice to have it over and then rest for 3 weeks.  I’m feeling it today…wishing I didn’t have to do this. Tired of it all. But I also know this too shall pass. That’s the good thing…the feelings don’t last forever. I think a big fat nap this afternoon might help;)  The anxiety is high today things like “is this poison even working in me? I haven’t had a lot of the side effects yet which I’m so thankful for…but does that mean it’s not working?”  I have to get a scan in another 3 weeks (before the next round starts) to check the progress of the tumors…I hope and pray they’ve shrunk some.  Yesterday my sweet friend Chaundra brought me to treatment! She’s always good to tell me stories, make me laugh and such to get my mind off of things! The time flew by. She is a loyal friend that would do anything for anyone❤️ She is the face behind the “red bracelets

 My labs were good today…white blood cell count was back up and so that means round 2 is under way. The poison is flowing as I type this. If can feel as good or even almost as good as I did the first round I will be so happy! And if not…I’ll deal. I can’t believe how far cancer treatment has come…the things they can do to help you feel decent, etc…it’s amazing.  Today my cute mama brought me to treatment. I’m so glad she would come with me to keep me company. Sometimes I feel sad for my parents. It feels like I should be “taking care of them” at this point in life (even though they are still self sufficient) they shouldn’t have to be worried about me. They’ve been amazing though….spreading my bracelets around and asking people to pray for miracles as well as just being so very supportive and helpful.  Same with my in-laws. Brandon and I are so grateful and know that in the “parent department” we’ve both been very blessed. And we appreciate every kind thing they’ve ever done for us. Thr

We had planned a trip to Disneyland for Isaac months ago...way before the diagnosis. It worked out perfectly in between my treatments so we went ahead with it because I was feeling fine! We have taken Ike to Disney about every 3-5 years…but let’s just say it may have been his last trip there. It was so hard. In case you didn’t know, Autism and unpredictability do not go hand in hand. As he has gotten older he has gotten more rigid with his schedule and what he “thinks” should be happening. So it was hard to explain to him why Radiator Springs Racers was closed for half of the day. (He eventually got to) And how do you explain to someone like him why the airplane has been delayed for hours and you can’t go to the airport yet. Waiting in long lines is excruciating and Disney was pretty busy on Monday! Even with the disability pass they offer it was just too much.  Don’t get me wrong any day in Disneyland is a happy day! Feeling the warm sunshine was heavenly. And we found moments of joy

  It’s been a week since I finished my first round of chemo. I’m feeling pretty good. Mostly just more tired than usual and have also had chemo brain (brain fog) on a few occasions, which I really dislike. I hate not feeling like myself. I’m trying to take advantage of feeling good, because I’m sure with each round the symptoms will become worse. The mental toll is still the hardest part for me. One moment I’m happy and feeling good and then the next I’m sad and crying and just wanting my old life back. My poor therapist has go over the same coping tools each time I see her! And poor Brandon has to talk me down way too often lately.  I will start the next round on March 15 and do just like last time….Wednesday, Thursday and Friday and then a 3 week break.  We have been well taken care of by our family, friends and neighbors! They’ve been bringing meals and doing such kind acts of service. We are truly so thankful. A few people have asked how I even knew something was wrong. And I don’t