Team Jenny!

 I’m glad this week is over! It was a 2 scan week this time and a doctor appt on Friday. As I’ve said before…I really hate these weeks. So much anxiety and worry.  I met with Dr Low yesterday. It’s funny how once I know the results and the plan that I feel better. Even though the results weren’t awesome…the tumors have grown and are spreading. That being said again, it’s a slow growing cancer. He didn’t seem too uptight about that. And I was pretty positive they were growing and spreading, I can feel some of the tumors just under my skin and can tell they’re getting bigger.  The chemo I’ve done up to this point has not been very effective. Which is so lame. It feels like a waste of time. But like my friend Anji said, it’s all good info, we now know that didn’t work so we move on to the next treatment and find something that does work. Almost like a science experiment! Only….it’s my life and I wish I didn’t have to experiment!  He would like to start me on immunothera...

 1 week ago this morning I finished 25 rounds of radiation. It was not bad at all. And for that I am grateful. I didn’t have any major side effects…yay! I’m so glad to not be driving to the hospital every morning anymore though, that’s for sure! I tell you, the radiation team and staff at the IMC radiation oncology office are fabulous. The kindest people. Everyday they would turn up my music and get me a warm blanket❤️on the last day Brandon and Gracie came with me to see me “bang the gong” to signify I was done with that round. Fighting cancer is such a long road. I’m glad they let us bang the gong or ring the bell after a treatment plan is done! It’s not just for those that have been deemed cancer free anymore. We celebrate the small accomplishments too. I got to bring my mask home and it is currently sitting on my mantle! But I think I’ll move it. It’s just a stark reminder of my reality and sometimes I just want to forget about it all. I will have a scan of my spinal cord in a ...

Today I completed 5 out of 25 radiation treatments for the tumor in my spinal cord. 20 more to go! So far, so good. I’m not feeling any side effects from it yet. Dr Grant, my radiation doctor said I probably won’t feel them til closer to the end of treatments. I’m praying they’re minor🙏 I go in every morning for a VERY short treatment. My team is adorable, they always ask what I want to listen to. I usually barely make it through 2 songs before they come in to take my mask off and lower the table. It’s less than 10 minutes. Sometimes it seems silly to drive that far for a 10 minute treatment…but it’s worth it if it prolongs my life for sure. You can’t see the radiation going in, or feel anything at all. The table is very hard and the mask was made just for me, it’s pretty hard too and not very comfortable. They put pins in the sides of it so that I can’t move my head or neck. Then they lock my shoulders in so they can’t move either. I’m super glad it’s a short treatment! The reason it...

 It’s crazy to think that a week ago today I was on cloud 9. Things looked stable and I was ready to go live my best life. Today I’m not on a cloud…I’m maybe under a gray cloud? Things will get better…I just need to process.  Update: I had an MRI done on the spot on my neck on Tuesday. What my Dr thought was 99% going to be fine was not😢 it is indeed a tumor on my spinal cord. Not a good place for a tumor. I’m going to have to do radiation on it to try and shrink it. I’ll start later in August after a family trip (which I’m so grateful they’re allowing me to take) and I’ll be going every day to have radiation for 5 straight weeks. Yikes. I’m not having any symptoms of like numbness or anything so that’s good. Hopefully we caught it small enough to be able to have it shrink a little and keep it at bay. Because it’s now on my spinal cord they want to do an MRI of my brain next week. I’m sure praying it hasn’t spread there. I’m so sick of scans and blood draws I could puke....

 Got some good news today! After a scan this past week we met with Dr. Low this afternoon to go over results. He said those amazing words “everything looks stable” and as I’ve said before. Stable is a pretty good place to be! There are still tumors, I still have cancer, but it’s just hanging out in there for now and not growing or spreading.  The last scan I had was maybe in February? That was the time that there were two naughty tumors that needed radiation. The scans showed that those had both shrunk (ever so slightly, but still…they shrunk!) after radiation I did a couple more rounds of oral chemo.  I’ve been a wreck a lot of this week anticipating this appointment today. I just hate waiting for results so badly. And always fear the worst. I know so many were praying for me this week and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I can always feel the prayers and good vibes and my anxiety seems a tad bit less:)  There is one teeny tiny hiccup. There was a new spot o...

Today is my 49th bday. I’m thankful for the year I’ve had and all the living I could experience. I’m thinking of and missing my mom extra today and so grateful that she brought me into this world. Love you mama 💕It’s a beautiful life….and also kind of sucky sometimes. Things with my health have felt like a rollercoaster lately. My last post talked about when I rang the bell to mark my last radiation treatment. After a short break, I started oral chemo again and got 1 round in (each round lasts for 2 weeks then I take a 2 week break, then go again.) over Memorial Day weekend we had a trip planned to Alabama and Georgia to visit Brandon’s parents who are on a church mission there. Prior to leaving I noticed I was getting many more bruises than normal. (Since I’m on blood thinner, I bruise easy…but these were next level…dark, all over my legs and arms) my doc wasn’t concerned when I called about it. We chalked it up to the warmer weather and me being more active in the yard. We went on o...